Nothing Gold Can Stay

     I have been feeling down about myself all night. Just about choices I made and how it effected others around me. And how it made me look. I feel like I ruined a lot of relationships with people that I wish I didn’t.

     For some reason lately I have been feeling like I’m not good enough for anyone. And the I’m going to continue to be lonely because of this. I know this is not true at all but I keep on putting the idea into my head.

     I also am just slowly giving up on finding a girl for me. It’s like everytime I try it just goes no where at all. Either the girl is immature, something stupid happens and it ruins everything, or she is everything I’d want but I just can’t have her, or she is just not that interesting at all or worth my time. I guess I kinda sound like a jerk when I say that but its true. I’m just hoping things go my way soon. It would be nice to have someone to care about/care about me.